the lost finale or, the only thing that could distract me from the lost finale

This was going to be a super long, wordy, post about an accident Rowan had earlier this week. Several days later it seems silly, as she is just fine. However, I feel I should record these moments of terror she gives us for future reference. I’ll keep it much shorter.

She fell, knocking her head on the sidewalk, while playing with her sisters  outside. Jeremy was out there with her and got to her first. He scooped her up and then noticed that she looked like something was wrong. I’m not sure exactly when everything happened, but by the time he got her to me, she was convulsing and her lips were starting to turn blue. We realized she wasn’t really breathing and began to panic. Also, seeing your baby convulsing in your arms with her eyes rolled back in her head is terrifying and makes you think all sorts of things you never want to to think. Our friend Ryan was outside with them as well, and got on the phone with 911 immediately (and was totally calm and collected despite the fact that I was screaming at him “SHE’S NOT BREATHING!” ) Jeremy went inside with the big girls to get them calmed down and I took Rowan back outside, mainly because I wanted to be around someone else who could maybe save her if necessary.

She stopped convulsing, I think, and I put her back on the sidewalk. This was not so smart, I think now, but it’s the flattest surface out there because our yard is so crappy and lumpy and I wanted to make sure her airway was clear. She continued to turn blue (hands and feet now) and I started randomly blowing in her face and sort of puffing at her mouth – not really doing anything I was supposed to, and probably doing things I shouldn’t. Finally, her lips suddenly turned pink and she started making little moaning noises. Soon after that the paramedics came, and I held her in the ambulance while Jeremy drove along behind.

At the ER, we basically sat around for a while. There was no visible injury, and everyone seems pretty sure that she did not pass out from hitting her head, but from holding her breath too long while winding up to cry. Also, everyone kept saying how normal it was for her to convulse and turn blue. Needless to say, normal or not, that is not something Jeremy or I ever want to see again.

The title of the post is about Lost. This is not. This did happen on the night of the Lost series finale. I did still get to watch, I loved it and thought it was a great, Narnia-esque end to a great series and held the baby the whole time.

This is still kind of wordy, but nowhere near where it was.